where is my dream girl?

All i want, is a simple life
All i want, is a lovely wife
All i want, is home sweet home
and all i want, is to be with her

A girl to love,
a girl to care,
a girl to pamper,
and a girl to spend my life with.

All i wish is for a girl to love me devotedly,
who wants to share her life with me,
who wants to share her secrets with me,
who wants to spend her time with me,
who loves me for who i am,
who loves me for who i will be,
who loves me for what i did,
who loves me for what i will do.

Someone to watch the movies with,
to listen music with,
to go to the park with,
to go to makan places with,
to go to restaurants with,
to go home with,
to go to bed with,

but the someone in the life, once was, now not and never will be?
is she happy?
am i happy?
are we happy?
why ain't love the way it should be?
why ain't love the way i thought it is?

can we be happy together?
it has been a rough patch in recent months,
I still love her, but am i in love?
i still want to share my life with her, but will we be happy?
Am i just bad company that she prefer being with friends?
Am i just so boring that she prefers her laptop?
Am i just the wrong one for her?
I am...good company to others
i am....not so boring with my friends
i am...quite the good boyfriend / husband type according to others
so wat's wrong i ask...
wat's the matter man...i am lost...lost in the desert, with no compass and no idea how to see the stars....i think i need, an information counter... well, shld be at level 1